Dive in the Deep End of Jesus Christ as Husband

"For thy Maker is thine husband; the Lord of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called." (Isaiah 54:5)

YOU are the Bride!

Jesus is the Husband!

All Three Are Your Husband!

That actually is about Jehovah, but One is Three, Three are One, Jesus, God, and Holy Ghost. All three are our Husbands. God is the Head, Jesus is the Body, and the Holy Ghost is the Spirit and Power of God. That is the Trinity. You either get it or your don’t. It’s that simple.

Dive in the Deep End of Jesus Christ

Really.

Accept Jesus Christ as Husband, the Perfect Husband, and devote your life to Jesus Christ. Did you know the Song of Solomon is how Jesus Christ thinks of the Church, His Bride, and You! Ignore the sex parts, and that’s God’s love letter to you.

Yeah, really.

Honestly, I don’t do anything little. I’m full in, full on, diving in the deep end, going where even angels fear to tread. I’m committed. I’m a True Believer and won’t be swayed. “I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me” as Phil. 4:13 so gloriously says. Jesus is my Husband. In Jesus Christ will I trust.

JESUS IS THE ONLY THING YOU CAN DEVOTE ALL YOUR TIME TO AND NOT GO CRAZY!

Demons attacked my belief in the Resurrection since I never really studied it. I just believed it. I remember once going to work, I suddenly had this realization, “I believe in the whole Bible.” I may not understand it, but I believe it. I had what alcoholics call a moment of clarity. Anyway, demons tried to get me to doubt the Resurrection.

God sent video after video on Youtube from preachers providing proof.

Isn’t that like a GREAT Husband?

Anyway, Pastor Voddie Bauchan said how thousands saw Jesus ascend to Heaven after His Resurrection. Wow! I never knew that before. I was exposed to more proof. But, the Bible says it best as “Jesus said to him (Thomas), because you have seen Me, you have believed. Blessed are those who have not seen, and have yet believed.”(John 20:29)

God allowed demons to attack me.

Yes, HE DID!

God will test your faith and your endurance and your allegiance.

God allows satan to try and sift you as wheat to MAKE YOU STRONGER!

Jesus said to Peter, “satan has asked me if he can sift you as wheat.” Peter replied, “You told him no right?” Jesus said, hand on shoulder, “No, I told him he could, BUT I have prayed that your faith will not fail.” This is in Luke 22.

If you want to be in ministry, God HAS to allow toilet bug, er, satan to try and sift you as wheat. And, God will allow toilet bug to hit you were it hurts. BUT, Jesus has prayed to God that your faith will NOT fail in the hour of testing.

GOD, JESUS AND THE HOLY GHOST ARE ALL ON YOUR SIDE!

That’s why God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost are Great Husbands!

GOD WANTS YOU TO CALL ON HIM!

“Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.” Jeremiah 33:3

God already knows the trial, knows the ending, knows how you’ll defeat it in Him....

THE MOST POWERFUL SCRIPTURE FOR BELIEVERS IS:

“I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me.” Phil. 4:13. “Through Christ who strengthens” is how Jesus does it.

I’m convinced, if you use that Scripture, NOTHING will move you. You pray that Scripture to God and He answers with power, authority and might. Just remember, you didn’t do anything, Jesus did it, give Jesus/God the glory and never buy your own baloney. You are to build rewards in Heaven NOT earth. 

You realize as a Holy Ghost fire baptized Christian ALL the power of God, God, Son and Holy Ghost, resides right inside you, right? 

“ These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” John 18:33-34

Jesus won every fight, every battle, every war when he hung on that Cross at Calvary. When Jesus said, “It is finished” Jesus claimed every victory over death, hell and the grave. Jesus was dead and went to hell and took the keys of death and hell and then was resurrected the third day by the Holy Ghost. Thousands saw Jesus ascend to Heaven. It’s historical fact.

Why will you go through the trial?

In Jesus Christ, you will NOT be moved. Keep your eyes on Jesus. Preachers come and go, angels are there, but our eyes are supposed to be fixed on Jesus. Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever as Hebrews 13:8 says.

If you make Jesus your focus, you will NOT be moved.

“I have set the LORD always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.” (Psalms 16:8)

Jesus will NEVER be moved. “The grass withereth, the flower fadeth: but the word of our God shall stand for ever.” Isaiah 40:3. 

Who is the Word? Jesus is the Word. 

“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was God. The same was in the beginning with God. All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made. In him was life; and the life was the light of men. And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.” John 1:1-5.

That Bible you read is the Written Word...

...It’s Jesus on Paper!

And...

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

Even in your darkest hour, Romans 8:28 will comfort you if you keep your eyes firmly on Jesus Christ. The Cross is our bridge from here to eternity, from sin to redemption, from sin to God’s presence. And, remember, “I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me.” Phil 4:13.

Why more women don’t swoon, stay single, and devote themselves solely to Jesus Christ boggles my mind. I’ve heard Jesus’s audible voice. It’s perfection. It’s sweetness, it’s full of love, it’s meek, it’s passionate, it’s kind. His voice was just immaculate. When Jesus was on earth, he was average looking and of no renown, until He spoke. That voice is just flawless and perfect.

He said, “two women are grinding at the mill....” I knew he was saying the rapture is real and he was quoting Luke 17:35.

If Jesus was willing to be beaten, His beard plucked out, die on a Cross at Calvary butt naked (Yeah, His crucifixion was naked), do you really think Jesus wouldn’t do anything for YOU?

Husbands are commanded to die for their Bride.

Jesus said to love a wife as Jesus loved the Church.

Jesus died for the Church (His Bride).

So, husbands are commanded to die for their wives if required.

“Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave Himself up for her, to sanctify her, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to Himself as a glorious church, without stain or wrinkle or any such blemish, but holy and blameless.” Ephesians 5:25-27 (Berean)

So, DIVE IN THE DEEP END OF JESUS CHRIST!

I’m happiest and most content when I think of Jesus Christ (God and the Holy Ghost, too) as my Husband. In fact, when I wake, if I say, “Good morning, my Husband” that gives me a loving feeling deep in my being, deep in my soul. I’ve gone through every emotion of love you can think of when thinking about my Savior and God Jesus Christ. They really are all the same, and separate at the same time. I can’t explain it, but I understand the Trinity.

I fell deeply in love with Jesus Christ since I read Isaiah 54:5 and took it to heart. You can take the Husband thing as far as you’d like. If you do, you probably will never be happy with a human lover, however. Can any mere human compare to Jesus Christ, the rule of all, God?

Can anyone?

Nope.

All forms of love are mere reflections of Agape (God’s) Love. Romantic, family, and friendship love are all reflections of Agape. When Jesus died on the Cross and was separate from God the Father, that was Agape. Jesus had to die. Jesus had to be the supreme sacrifice. God had worked this out even before Adam and Eve sinned in the Garden of Eden. 

When you are alone, Jesus, God and the Holy Ghost are right there.

“A man who has friends must himself be friendly, But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.” Psalms 18:24

Jesus is inside you. Jesus is WAY closer than a brother. His Spirit resides in you. His Spirit gives you the breath of life. In fact, did you know every time you take a breath, you say, “Ya-way” the name for God “YHWH”? 

“But there is a spirit within people, the breath of the Almighty within them, that makes them intelligent.” Job 32:8

Yeah, you breathing is because God wills it!

We ALL have the Holy Ghost. Only when you get saved and accept the Baptism of the Holy Ghost...You are made aware of Him. Until then, the Holy Ghost is every breath you take.

“But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.” Romans 8-11 (KJV)

In fact, the Anointing (Holy Ghost) is the fire inside me that “quickens” my mortal body. I feel the Holy Ghost stronger in my legs. As I’ve grown in the Lord, I feel the Holy Ghost all over my body. I’ve felt the Holy Ghost power even on my eyes and eyelids.

So, can you!

One the best memories was when God the Father told me the song “Stuck on You” by Lionel Richie was the way He felt about me. Not romantically like the song, but that God loved me completely. Then, I sang it back to Him. 

One of my favorite songs to think about Jesus is Heaven is Place on Earth. It’s deeply personal but I can listen to that song and think about how Jesus has took care of me my whole life. Jesus literally has made my life Heaven on Earth. I got my identity, when I had none, from God the Father. I remember one morning, I saw all three of them at the same time. God was an older Jesus. The Holy Ghost is a mist since He’s Spirit (the Spirit of Jesus His favorite title I think). I had seen him multiple times and didn’t know that was the Holy Ghost. This teen girl on Youtube described the Holy Ghost as a mist and ever once and awhile His face would form and it would look just like Jesus. Really, they are three and one in same. That perfectly explains the Divine Trinity.

NOTHING CAN SEPARATE ME FROM GOD’S LOVE, JESUS CHRIST!

“And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39 (NLT)

HOW TO DIVE IN THE DEEP END OF JESUS CHRIST!

1. Surrender fully. Just say, “Jesus, if there is something you want me to do, I’ll do it.”

2. Accept Jesus Christ, God and the Holy Ghost as Husband.

3. Talk to all of them as you would a Husband.

4. Tell Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost everything. Hold nothing back. He knows you better than you do already, so why not tell Him? Relationship is what God wants from you most. That’s why God created man. God was lonely.

5. Study the Bible. “Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.” 2 Tim 2:15.

You are God's prized possession and toilet bug, er, satan HATES YOU! Honestly, has satan ever done anything for you? Really? Nope, not one thing! Jesus, on the other hand, has paved the way for us with complete and utter victory over everything, especially satan and his ilk. When Jesus died on the Cross, he took away the sin of the world. We only have to repent and ask Jesus into our heart to be born again.

Do you know Jesus?

Well, it is easy to know him and experience his undying, unfathomable love and affection.

He came and died for you.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." (John 3:16) (KJV)

There is no greater love than Jesus.

"Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." (John 15:13) (KJV)

Accept Him today if you don't know him.

Sinner's Prayer

"Dear Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner, and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe You died for my sins and rose from the dead. I turn from my sins and invite You to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow You as my Lord and Savior."

Now, go and tell someone and welcome to His Kingdom.

The Holy Spirit Baptism is a gift. Just pray, "God, I accept the Holy Spirit as a gift and welcome Him into my being. Thank and praise you Jesus for the Holy Spirit." In these dark times, you need the Holy Spirit right after getting saved.

Amen.

Tim (formerly Transwoman Rachel)

My Testimony (Video)

 

Pastrix Rachel Teresa
TransgenderChurch.com

Jesus Holds Your Hand

Jesus Holds Your Hand

“I the LORD have called thee in righteousness, and will hold thine hand, and will keep thee, and give thee for a covenant of the people, for a light of the Gentiles;” (Isaiah 42:6) (KJV)

“A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.” (Proverbs 18:24) (KJV)

And, my personal favorite, “For thy maker is thine Husband, the Lord of Hosts is His Name.” (Isaiah 52:5)

Most have heard the poem Footprints where Jesus showed a man he walked with him. But, at one point, only one set of footprints was seen on the ground. It was then Jesus carried you. The simple truth of the Godhead, Jesus, God the Father and the Holy Spirit, is they are all one person and three people. All three are your Husband, your Father, your Creator, your Lover, yeah, lover, your Comforter. I saw them all at once inside me and they all were my Husband.

All three reside right there inside you. That’s why God is closer than a brother. God moves through your soul, energizes your spirit and warms and tingles your skin. All are one and one are three. In my experience, God’s voice thunders, Jesus’s voice is soooooo sweet it’ll make you swoon (nothing makes me feel like a woman likes hearing Jesus’s voice), and the Holy Spirit is Jesus’s Spirit and laughs with me, laughs at my corny jokes. I remember waking one morning and Jesus voice said to me, “Two women shall be grinding at the mill...” (Matt 24:41) It was truly the sweetest voice I had ever heard. And, I saw Jesus playing the piano in a vision. He was wearing a white loincloth as his fingers danced on a Steinway piano. His tanned skin was magnificently beautiful. It was flawless and perfect and gorgeous.

Jesus as Lover

Yes, Jesus is your lover. But, it’s not sexual. Jesus wants a relationship with you more than anything. But, if you want to dive deep into God, deep into Jesus, you have to whisper his name Husband and take Him as your one and only. You have to surrender all. Very few Christians surrender all. Very few Christians ever experience the unfathomable, unending Love that Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit. I know Jesus smiles at me, sends love for me to see. The Song of Solomon is Jesus’s and God’s and the Holy Spirit’s love letter to every Christian and the Body of Christ as a whole. You can make it as personal as you desire. How is a man supposed to love a Bride? He has to die for her. “"Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." (John 15:13) (KJV) No matter how much anyone has loved you in this world, including mom, there is nothing like the Love of Jesus Christ. God even counts the hairs on your head Jesus loves you so much. (Matthew 10:26–31)

Jesus died for YOU!

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." (John 3:16) (KJV)

There is no greater love than Jesus.

"Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." (John 15:13) (KJV)

Accept Him today if you don't know him.

Sinner's Prayer

"Dear Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner, and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe You died for my sins and rose from the dead. I turn from my sins and invite You to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow You as my Lord and Savior."

Now, go and tell someone and welcome to His Kingdom.

The Holy Spirit Baptism is a gift. Just pray, "God, I accept the Holy Spirit as a gift and welcome Him into my being. Thank and praise you Jesus for the Holy Spirit."

Amen and Hallelujah.

Pastrix Rachel Teresa

Transgender Church

Crucifixion and Resurrection

The night before Jesus sweated blood
knowing His fate of beatings and Crucifixion.
He was sentenced to suffer for our sin,
the collective sin of all men.
Our sin sunk each nail deeper.
But, Jesus took the punishment
we all deserved to take.
The broke His heavenly body,
they lashed his back forty times.
He was beaten for our transgressions
and crucified for our offences.
But, Jesus thought of each of us
during the hours of pain he
suffered on the Cross at Calvary,
Amazing Grace how sweet the sound.
Jesus was the Word
and the Word was God,
They didn’t kill him at Calvary,
For Jesus died when He gave up the Spirit.
His legs ne’er were broken as consequence.
Our healing of all diseases
were due to the 40 lashes of the Romans,
Jesus took the fervent judgement of God
upon Him to spare the lives of all
that would confess their sins
and ask for forgiveness.
He was the Spotless Lamb
and the Lion of the Tribe of Judah.
What is Ultimate Love?
Sacrifice, laying down one's life
for the lives of all His friends.
Thank you, O' King of Kings
Lord of Lords, O' Most High.
For Jesus has Risen.
And is the Savior of All Men, and Women.

Jesus: The Most Loving Husband

For many years and years, I wanted to find someone to marry and fall in love with. I had an abusive childhood filled with fear, hate and emotional abuse from my father. I was also sexually abused when I was really young by a woman. The deep longing for someone was nothing no one could ever fill. There was a hole in my soul only Jesus could fill. It is that way with everyone. People try to fill it with all kinds of things, but it is hole that only Jesus can fill. He fills it with His love and grace, and He shows you how to really love yourself. Jesus’s love is the loves combined into one. Agape love, heavenly love only Jesus can give, fulfills the love of romantic, family, friends and the love of mankind. His presence, which He blesses with me a lot of the time, only gets sweeter.

Honestly, as a woman, Jesus’s love has been all encompassing. He listens to my bullsh*t (pardon the French) as a father, as a Husband, as a friend and never tires of my voice. God never tires of hearing my voice or anyone’s voice (Isaiah 40:28). Yes, it seems hard for men to relate to Jesus as a spouse, but why more women don’t fully dive into that pool of complete love is beyond me. It’s perfectly fine to do so.

Falling in love with Jesus really feels romantic at times. It isn’t sexual, but certainly made me feel sexual in way that is beyond imagination. Jesus is not sexual, but, in me, at least, it fulfills that desire somehow. Jesus’s love is so deep eventually you dive into His water’s of tranquility until you are overwhelmed with a passion beyond what you ever dreamed possible. Yes, I’ve definitely had romantic feelings for Jesus. But, it is more that I want His beautiful, tranquil presence and Him touching my inner core of being than anything. He can touch your heart in a way that makes you melt. God the Father can do that, too. And, the Holy Spirit touching your core is all three of them touching it at the same time. It is far beyond anything like lovemaking. It is Jesus nourishing your soul with Himself that causes all kinds of feelings. It’s like getting lost in this benevolent feeling of love so immense you can never contain it and just have to let it overflow your being. As humans, I think we are scared of being so love that God counts the very hairs on our head (Luke 12:7)

Since we are soul, spirit and body, Jesus, as a Husband, fulfills all those needs. Eventually, you will think about God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit all the time. If you want to know how much Jesus loves you, look no further than the Song of Solomon, minus the sexual parts. That really is Jesus’s love letter to all Christians, male or female. Remember, when you get saved, you are getting married. Human marriage, which some see as rapture, is nothing compared to the spiritual marriage to Jesus Christ. Only a few ever surrender completely to Jesus. I did. That’s when you find the riches of your marriage to Jesus Christ. He hung on a Cross for each and every one of us. And, while Jesus hung on that Cross, He thought of each and every one of us, as unbelievable as that sounds. Well, He is God come in the flesh.

It all started when God called me Rachel in a dream. I knew then He got me. It was acceptance. And, a few more things He did showed me just how much God cared about me and how much He, Jesus and the Holy Spirit loved me. I say a lot of the time, when I get up, Good morning, my Husband. In Isaiah 54:5, God reveals His true nature to us: “For thy Maker is thine husband; the Lord of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.” (KJV) God is three and three are One. At the end, I believe, when I get to heaven, I will find the marvelous Godhead is Jesus sitting on a throne of gold. In Jesus is completeness so immense that it saturates you with His beauty and magnificence. God is amazing and a loving Heavenly Father that gave His Son that we should not perish but have eternal life through Christ Jesus who loved us first. As a nun, as a woman, as a Jew, I’m in total awe and in love with all three. God is the father I always needed, Jesus the Husband I always wanted, and the Holy Spirit, Jesus’s Spirit, is the best friend I always dreamed of. And, together as one, they are the love of my soul that I always desired. It was in God that I found me. I can’t wait till the Marriage Supper of the Lamb.

You are God's prized possession and Satan HATES YOU! Honestly, has Satan ever done anything for you? Really? Nope, not one thing! Jesus, on the other hand, has paved the way for us with complete and utter victory over everything, especially Satan and his ilk. When Jesus died on the Cross, he took away the sin of the world. We only have to repent and ask Jesus into our heart to be born again.

Do you want to go to the Marriage Supper of the Lamb of God, Jesus Christ, or burn for all eternity?

Do you know Jesus?

Well, it is easy to know him and experience his undying, unfathomable love and affection.

He came and died for you.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." (John 3:16) (KJV)

There is no greater love than Jesus.

"Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." (John 15:13) (KJV)

Accept Him today if you don't know him.

Sinner's Prayer

"Dear Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner, and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe You died for my sins and rose from the dead. I turn from my sins and invite You to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow You as my Lord and Savior."
            
Now, go and tell someone and welcome to His Kingdom.

The Holy Spirit Baptism is a gift. Just pray, "God, I accept the Holy Spirit as a gift and welcome Him into my being. Thank and praise you Jesus for the Holy Spirit." In these dark times, you need the Holy Spirit right after getting saved.

Amen and Hallelujah.
Pastrix Rachel Teresa

Jesus Completes Me

After a night of terrible despair, I had given up before God, I ha d just had enough, God gave me a dream and called me one name--Rachel. Jesus called me Rachel. God had gotten me. And, more importantly, he was okay with me being a woman even though my body was male. He knew I changed sex when I was abused my whole childhood, including sexually. The molestation changed me to a female inside and the constant emotional abuse my whole childhood was my estrogen. I’ve always been like a female--wanting to be taken care of, constantly dealing with my emotions. I read a book years before that explained how women thought, written by a woman that was a clinical psychologist, and I instantly knew it was talking about me.

God got me!

He understood.

Then, came my favorite Scripture: “For thy Maker is thine husband; the Lord of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.” (Isaiah 54:5) (KJV)

Jesus was my Husband.

I had always looked for a wife and really needed a Husband in Jesus Christ.

I fell head over heels in love with all of the Godhead.

Falling in love with Jesus begins like falling for someone. But, suddenly, it gets way bigger. His presence fills you to overflowing. Jesus will make you swoon. It is romantic in a sense. He is the groom and you are the bride. Yes, it is corporate, all Christians, and personal, just you and Jesus. Take it as far as you’d like. I promise you it will be the ride of your life and will last for all eternity. The LOVE made me feel sexual. The love lit my fire. God is holy so I can’t have sex with Him, which I’ve wanted in the past, but I definitely have romantic feelings for God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. They all are my Husband. 

I was finally married to someone who would never hurt me, never forsake me, and take care of me. And, He literally lived inside of me. Jesus moves inside my being. His Spirit quickens my mortal flesh. And, one day, as lightning flashes from east to west, lighting up the night sky, my Husband is going to take me away to eternity. (Matt 24:27)

It was time to go deep into God, deep into Jesus, allow the Holy Spirit to lead and guide my path. Gee, think about it? Jesus knew me before time began, He called me, He chose me, and Jesus created everything. Jesus is the sweetest man. God is the sweetest Father, and Husband. If you really go deep and allow the Holy Spirit to show you the truth, He will show you everything.

You have to let go of this world.

You have to die to self, and surrender to Jesus Christ.

There is no try.

There is only do.

Yeah, you are not required to dive into the deep end. There are fleshly Christians, there are Christians who only like milk and not meat. But, they will never triumph. They’ll go to heaven and that’s it. For some, that’s enough.

Not me.

I’m all in.

So, I dove into the deep end. I once thought I wasn’t that spiritually minded. God made me believe, “Are you kidding? You go to it like a duck goes to water.” I wanted a relationship. Honestly, I wanted to be a woman after God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit’s heart like King David. No idea if I’ll ever get there. Maybe, who knows. I’m not interested in marriage to a human. Jesus scratched that itch completely. God is it. And, honestly, I’d see it as cheating on Jesus. 

I’m all in. 

The world is not enough.

“Enoch walked with God, and he was not, for God took him.” (Gen. 5:24)

Enoch went deep. 

Probably so deep he wasn’t allowed to write it down. The depths of God is reserved for those who diligently dive into Jesus Christ’s eternal love and presence. Jesus can do anything. The deeper you go the further from the world you get. Enoch dove deep inside God. So deep he was taken from God and will not see death until the Tribulation as one of the two witnesses with Elijah, also taken and did not see death.

Jesus will take you far, His Spirit will uncover all the truths of life until you see enough before it overwhelms you. The rabbit hole goes really deep in this world. I’ve almost gone crazy seeing it. Finally, I had to take a break seeing the supernatural things happening all over the world. I also found out mankind lies about a lot of things. A lot of the things I was taught in school were blatant lies or distortions.

I’ve seen Jesus several times, and seen the Holy Spirit quite a few times. All three of them have a voice. God’s thunders, Jesus’s voice is sweetness (His voice will make you swoon), and the Holy Spirit’s voice is sweetness. But, all of them are my Husband. Three is one and one is three.

I saw Jesus once playing an Enya song I was listening to. He was on a riser with while carpet and playing a white Steinway piano. His skin had the most beautiful tan ever. His back rippled with muscles. He was a carpenter so was a man’s man. Big and strong. He had long hair but I didn’t see his face.

God loves your voice. And, unlike most humans, God always attentively listens to you even when you drone on and on and on. When you are sad, God understands more than you know. When you are happy, God is happy for you. Jesus is more concerned about you that you will ever be concerned about yourself! 

God wants to hear about your feelings. He wants to know how you are feeling. Jesus feels a lot. He went through what we did when He walked among humans on the earth. God’s ways are not our way (Isaiah 55:8-9), but He feels and has lots of emotions. So, Jesus loves to hear about yours. And, Jesus does not get bored listening to you. Jesus listens. 

Jesus is my Husband.

Jesus Completes Me.

Jesus is the only person who can complete anyone.

Sincerely,

Pastrix Rachel Teresa
TransgenderChurch.com

Jesus is the Love You've Dreamed About

Jesus wants to be your spiritual husband. "For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called." (Isaiah 54:5) (KJV) And, "For as a young man marrieth a virgin, so shall thy sons marry thee: and as the bridegroom rejoiceth over the bride, so shall thy God rejoice over thee." (Isaiah 62:5) (KJV) God rejoices over us. God delights in us. "He will rejoice over you with singing." (Zephaniah 3:17)

We are the Bride of Christ, which is mentioned a lot in the Bible. Realistically, the Bible is God's love affair with us. Many think Songs of Solomon is the model for marriage. Yes, that's true, but it is also our model for our marriage to Christ.

God always wants to be first! Jesus is supposed to be your first love. "We love because he first loved us." (I John 4:19) Without loving Jesus, you really don't love anyone else the way God intended. God loves you so much he counts the hairs on your head. (Luke 12:17) Jesus really is nuts about you.

But, Jesus wants to be our first love.

"Thou shalt have no other gods before me." (Exodus 20:3) (KJV) And, of course, there are the first of two commandments of Jesus... "Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind." (Matt 22:37) (KJV)

You are supposed to love God with all your heart, all your soul and all your mind. Basically, God wants from us what He does for us. He probably doesn't get it from many Christians, but the few that ventures into actually doing it will reap something few Christians get. There is a fullness of God that he can let us experience and Jesus said he came so we might have life (salvation), and have life more abundantly. (John 10:10) Eternal life you get from salvation. But, abundant life you get from devotion to Jesus. You can never out love God.

But, God said David was a man after His own heart. (1 Sam 13:14; Acts 13:22)

You have to surrender your will to Jesus.

Honestly, I surrendered mine. I remember my devotion and acceptance at being a nun when I prayed something like this, "God, I give myself to you as a nun and a devote myself solely to you as your daughter, Jesus Christ as my husband and the Holy Spirit as my guide in Jesus's mighty name, Amen." The more I draw near to God, the more He'll draw near to me. "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you..." (James 4:8) (NKJV)

I always fought surrendering my will to Jesus. Honestly, I didn't know what that meant. I do wonder what He has in store for me. But, I doubt it is anything terrible. David risked his life a lot to do God's will. But, he was king of Israel and an actual warrior that shed a lot of blood.

About a year ago, God called me to the ministry with a really odd dream. I remember it well. I was in the military and we had these uniforms that was nothing like I had seen. But, I had a special uniform reserved only for me. I got the feeling other soldiers knew I was different. Not in awe of me, but they knew I carried a responsibility few did. I actually think I was the only one that did. Anyway, my job was to fly a plane, which I never saw, deep into enemy territory.

I didn't know it then, but Transgender Church was my ministry. I was meant to minister to others like myself. Honestly, I don't know a whole lot about female to male Transgenders, but I've been a male to female Transgender for really 48 years. Being Transgender is difficult because the church really doesn't get us, probably doesn't even like us. I'm sure female to male Transgender is the opposite of my experience.

Yes, there are some churches that accept Transgenders, but are they really following the Word of God in all areas like they are supposed to? Not really. The ones I've seen are okay with Gay Marriage (it's a sin, argue all you want) and progressive. God is not a secular humanist. He's Holy. God doesn't care if you are gay or lesbian and even enjoy such fantasies in your head. But, when you engage in gay or lesbian sex with someone, it's a sin, argue with me all you want, try and justify it all you want, it's a sin. The Bible is really clear on that in Romans 1:27. Also, those that engage in sexual immorality will not inherit the kingdom of Heaven via 1 Corinthians 6:9-11. I'd say that's pretty darn explicit. I cover how that affects Transgenders in https://www.transgenderchurch.com/2020/04/what-is-transgender-transgender-is-when.html

I've written all kinds of erotic romance novels. Straight, gay, lesbian, Transgender. It's not a sin. A novel is a fantasy. We all have fantasies in our brains. But, when you act on that fantasy and actually have sex with the same gender, it's a sin. If you are gay and abstain, fine. God has no problem with you. It's the actual sex that'll get you into trouble. Romans 1:27 is really clear on that, as I already mentioned. And, since Gay/Lesbian sex is a sin, you automatically know Gay marriage is sin, too. I don't care what so-and-so says. I don't care what some preacher says. It's a sin, period. The Bible is our authority not the opinion of someone, even if they claim to be a minister.

Why?

The DNA can't be changed.

God loves you for you. But, you can't change your DNA no matter how much you transition your appearance. God is fine with transitioning. I could never afford it. But, you can't change the DNA. God will readily accept you as Transgender, but if you were born a man physically, sexual relations with a man is a sin. Same applies if you were born female and have sex with another woman. It's a sin, too. Be sure to read Transgender Q&A. It explains it all. If I were to transition, and, yes, I'd love to live as a physical woman, I would ask God first what He thought. God really doesn't mind you dressing up. It's not a sin. Trust me, I'd love nothing more than to wake up in the morning with a female body matching my inside. But, God has helped me tremendously by calling me Rachel and accepting me as her. He'll do the same for you, too. I used to tell people I was a lesbian, but the simple truth is, my DNA is male so I'm really not as much as I'd like to think I was. LOL God doesn't care about fantasies, but He does care about the sex we have with someone else. Since saying that prayer and devoting myself to Jesus as a nun, I'll have a fleeting thought about wanting someone, but it doesn't last long. I meant my prayer to God.

At any rate, Jesus is your husband.

Paul actually said, maybe in his opinion, Christians should be single. "For I would that all men were even as I myself. But every man hath his proper gift of God, one after this manner, and another after that." (I Cor. 7:7) (KJV) But, that's not realistic. God did make Adam and Eve and said men should not be alone (Genesis 2:18). Even Paul said you should get married if you "burn with passion" (1 Cor. 7:9), which basically means if you're constantly lusting after everyone that crosses your path, get hitched. A husband can lust after his wife all day long, and a wife can lust after her husband all day long. In fact, aren't they supposed to desire each other sexually?

A little tidbit about marriage: the Husband's contributions makes all the difference. A woman can give and give, but it won't matter that much to a man that isn't giving. But, if the man gives everything, it will make all the difference unless the woman is just plain evil and totally into herself. Guys, God even warns you about such women in Proverbs 7. The warning was about adultery and said, "Her house is a highway to the grave, leading down to the chambers of death." God described her as "Then out came a woman to meet him, dressed like a prostitute and with crafty intent. (She is unruly and defiant, her feet never stay at home; now in the street, now in the squares, at every corner she lurks.)" Such a woman leads a man to ruin. Think Delilah and Sampson. Be wary of the temptress. Her silken words and sinful manners can destroy any man. And, girls, don't be that woman. Guys, look for a virtuous woman, and, girls, be one.

Maybe that's one of the reasons Paul loved singleness.

As far as me, I'll be quite honest here, I like the idea of marriage and sex with others. But, the reality left a lot to be desired. My rape when I was three and half years old ruined sex for me and made me hyper-sexual. It triggered that part of my Bipolar I disorder. I asked God to heal me of Bipolar and He lead me to understand sometimes healing is worse than the disease. Bipolars looooove their highs. Even with meds, I have my highs, but they are controlled, and, honestly, I don't want to be normal.

Let's face it, being Transgender is not the norm for anyone. It puts you at total odds with your physical body, and some can't handle such sexual fluidity. But, I love being a woman inside and have no desire to be male. I'm revealing myself here, but inside Rachel is a tough as nails woman that is also soft, loving, kind and feminine. She's a lioness with the heart of a woman. I'd much rather talk with others about how I feel than cars, football, or manly stuff. It's the reason so many women will confide in me just after we meet.

And, to be honest, when God called me "Rachel" in a dream–that changed my life in ways I'm still uncovering. Since I have Jewish blood and my Rachel persona was Jewish, I see why God liked the idea. But, then the Holy Spirit was totally excited when I decided to devote myself to God and be a "nun." He lead me there. It's odd, but as Rachel, I've never seen a person that could be my equal in life. I am totally content being Rachel inside. I just watch who I call "sweetie" and "honey." I sometimes totally forget people see a guy and not who I really am in Rachel. LOL

Men have a harder time with Jesus as Husband than women do. But, there is nothing sexual about it. It basically means, Jesus is your all. He wants to be your everything. He wants to be first in your life. It should be God, your spouse (if married), your kids, your job, etc. But, honestly, why I told God I'd be a nun was simple: I really want to see what God has in store for me. I just might get to see things few get to see and experience things few get to experience. Yes, it feels romantic, but it goes deeper. God really wants to satisfy all your needs. He wants to satisfy your physical needs, your emotional needs, your spiritual needs and even your sexual needs (not with Him, but He can give you Anointed Sex with yourself). God does offer Anointed Sex to Christians, which you can enjoy by yourself or with a spouse. Definitely the best sex I've ever had and it's just me. I'm Bipolar and God knows I'm hyper-sexual so the Anointed Sex I have has more than met that need.

But, Love is our main need.

Only God can give us Agape Love. That is the deepest love we can ever experience. Agape love is described as the love of God for man and the love of man for God. The depths of God's love really is beyond imagination. But, somehow, we can experience it if we only surrender our will to God, and love Him with all our heart, all our mind and all our soul as Jesus commanded. I definitely have felt infatuation for Jesus. Honestly, Christianity makes me horny, but that is just my individual response. However, infatuation with God will eventually go even deeper. For some, like me, it is the first step into a world I think few people get to go. Honestly, I'm married to Jesus. I made a vow to be a nun and be celibate for Jesus.

And, you bet your bottom dollar, I want to experience Agape Love to the fullest extent possible. Jesus promised it. "I come that you have life, and have life more abundantly." (John 10:10 paraphrase). Life is salvation. Life more abundantly is that experience of Agape love that St. Theresa called ecstasy. I don't know what she experienced exactly, but I want it. She had the abundant life. To get that, you have to surrender you will, devote yourself, and make Jesus your one and only like she did. I will tell you the closer you get to God, the closer the Holy Spirit will manifest Himself to you. You can feel the tingling and heat of the Spirit from head to toe. There is nothing like the Anointing.

Agape love has changed me. I'm finding I love everybody more and more each day. I want it to get to the point the only thing I see in another person is their soul. Since God is Love, and to love others, God has to love through you, I believe eventually that will happen. My endemic nature might not like it, but I want it. I want to go after God's heart. I don't know what that really means, and I may not get there, but I want it.

Yes, I have my doubts. And, I have my moments of "what the heck am I doing?" But, such thoughts are fleeting. Emotions are fleeting. You can't live life by your emotions because "the heart is desperately wicked." (Jeremiah 17:9) The heart is desperately wicked because it is never satisfied. The heart flows with the wind and is directionless. You basically have to master it. Feelings are wonderful things, but they should never control your life. I think they should be a confirmation of what you think. The heart should be subject to your mind and will not the other way around. The mind and will is the adult and the heart (emotions) are your child. The heart can move you to do things, but you should think it through first.

And, remember this, "love (human) was not meant to last." Pat Benatar sang that line in Shadows of the Night and I've never forgotten it. A soul mate is an extremely rare thing. Even then, that love will fade and has to be constantly nurtured. God's love is never-ending while a human's love eventually has an expiration date. You might be totally in love with someone and a year later have moved on. God never moves on, His love never grows cold, His love never gets stale. God's love is for eternity. And, the way to get more of it is to give it away.

C.S. Lewis said there were four loves: Agape, Eros (the sexual he called Venus), Philia (friend, siblings) and Storge (empathy or familiar like how a mom loves their child). Agape is charitable love, unmerited love and from God. But, I think C.S. Lewis had it wrong. All love is from God. At God's core, there is love. I honestly think the other three loves C.S. Lewis describes are really reflections of Agape. We are only capable of really loving anyone through God. Otherwise, we don't.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Four_Loves

Jesus's love for us was stated here as the greatest: "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends" (John 15:13). What is the greatest love? Sacrifice. If you really love someone, you'll sacrifice for them. And, if you are a husband, you have to be willing to die for your Bride like Jesus, the Husband, did for the Church, His Bride.

God can't leave you; He'll only get sweeter and sweeter!

If you are not a Christian, doesn't this all sound good?

On December 20,1991, I got saved in bed with bronchitis. It was a beautiful experience. So, can you! It changed my life forever.

Do you know Jesus?

Well, it is easy to know him and experience his undying, unfathomable love and affection.

He came and died for you.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." (John 3:16) (KJV)

There is no greater love than Jesus.

"Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." (John 15:13) (KJV)

Accept Him today if you don't know him.

Sinner's Prayer

"Dear Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner, and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe You died for my sins and rose from the dead. I turn from my sins and invite You to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow You as my Lord and Savior."

Now, go and tell someone and welcome to His Kingdom.

Amen and Hallelujah.

Pastix Rachel
Transgenderchurch.com
Transgender Church

Jesus As My Husband; My Testimony

Jesus As My Husband; My Testimony

I am a Transgender woman, a Jew, a nun and the Pastrix of TransgenderChurch.com.

And, Jesus is my Husband.

Jesus said he would fulfill all my needs and give me the desires of my heart. "Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart." (Psalms 37:4) (KJV) I tell Jesus often how much I love Him as my husband, provider, protector, my all. He's the one I adore. You see, Jesus is your spiritual husband as a Christian. "For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called." (Isaiah 54:5) (KJV) No, we don't have sex. But, I have sex with myself and toys. And, it is Anointed (something few Christians explore I think), holy sex that has blown my mind and I've been sexually active since eleven years old (mostly masturbation). I'm 51 and having the best sex ever. But, Jesus as Husband means He is responsible for meeting my emotional, psychological, physical, sexual and spiritual needs.

Honestly, for years, I thought I wanted to meet some woman, and had strong crushes. Pat Benatar, my favorite female singer ever, was a strong crush in from 1983-1987. Taylor Swift was a strong crush for years, before I took my vows as a nun before God. Now, today, I'm no longer interested and have no crushes. Jesus wants to be the focus of your life in everything.

And, I am content, not just happy, but content in Christ Jesus.

But, how did my journey begin?

On May 17, 1972, I was a mere three and one-half years old. My father left me with a military couple he knew the night my mother went into labor with my brother. Both of them molested me. It was not violent, and she was evil, but was loving, as weird as that sounds. Anyway, after getting me in their waterbed naked, she was naked, she masturbated me with her hand before asking me if I wanted to feel real good and she performed fellatio on me. Honestly, I enjoyed it. I was just way too young. Yes, it was wrong and sick of her, but I enjoyed it. Afterwards, she asked me if I wanted to make her feel good. I did and she taught me how to perform cunnilingus on her. I didn't know any better. So, I did for about two hours and she had multiple orgasms. Then, I tried to pleasure her husband and couldn't. As they made love on the bed, I sat at the end of the bed watching the snow on the screen and the boy I was left and the girl I became stayed. I started masturbating to completion at eleven, and I loved sex. I never could get enough, and still can't. But, she killed my desire for anyone as a lover. I always fantasized about being married to some woman, but the idea was way better than the reality. And, when I look at a woman, since I am female inside and God sees me as a woman, I don't think, "I'd like to do her." No, I think, "what if I was her!" I've been doing that for as long as I can remember.

So, as my rapist made me a girl, my father's unending emotional abuse was my estrogen that made me a woman. I read a book by a female clinical psychologist and she intimated that estrogen makes women look at the emotional cues of others to see what they need from them. I did the same thing with my father and he was never satisfied. So, therefore, his emotional abuse was my estrogen that fully cemented me as a woman.

So, I am male physically, since I couldn't afford transition ever, and a full woman inside. But, God told me He wanted to be my everything. Jesus was the spiritual husband. For some reason, it is easier to see Jesus as husband if you are woman than a man. Sexual love is for humans, agape love is for Jesus. Yes, I sometimes think about Jesus romantically since I am totally in love with Him, and that's okay. I just don't think sexually about Him. He's God and Holy. However, Jesus can give you a mono sex life few ever get to have. I love my sex toys, and I am celibate for my husband. Paul calls the single life (1 Cor. 7:1-5) a gift. It is indeed a gift, and it is rare. Most are meant to marry another human being. I just was not. I'm a eunuch. I think my rape and childhood abuse made me a eunuch. The Bible says some are made. I rather think I was made. But, celibacy is for a rare few.

The Nun Thing

After a night of despair, God called me Rachel in a dream. He got me. He really got me. I was overjoyed he saw me as a female. Later, He gave me a dream and I was Rachel in the dream. He totally got me. And, my love for God bloomed into a raging river of passion, love, and adoration. Yes, even though it is not sexual, I am totally in love with Jesus. At first, it was romantic. Now, it is something far deeper. I told God to touch me anywhere, anytime. I remember my devotion and acceptance at being a nun when I prayed something like this, "God, I give myself to you as a nun and a devote myself solely to you as your daughter, Jesus Christ as my husband and the Holy Spirit as my guide in Jesus's mighty name, Amen." The more I draw near to God, the more He'll draw near to me. "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you..." (James 4:8) (NKJV) Many nuns consider themselves wives of Jesus and ever wear wedding rings. While my nunship is between me and God, I think it is no different than an accepted nun.

The love of God is unreal. Sometimes, it really is overwhelming how much God can love you. God will do this for me (and you): "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over." (Psalms 23:5) (KJV). Trust me, He will do it for you as He has done it for me. God's love, unlike a human's, is never-ending and He'll never leave you alone. "Don’t love money. Be happy with what you have because God has said, “I will never abandon you or leave you.”" (Hebrews 13:5) (GW)

God can't leave you; He'll only get sweeter and sweeter!

If you are not a Christian, doesn't this all sound good?

On December 20,1991, I got saved in bed with bronchitis. It was a beautiful experience. So, can you! It changed my life forever.

Do you know Jesus?

Well, it is easy to know him and experience his undying, unfathomable love and affection.

He came and died for you.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." (John 3:16) (KJV)

There is no greater love than Jesus.

"Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." (John 15:13) (KJV)

Accept Him today if you don't know him.

Sinner's Prayer

"Dear Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner, and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe You died for my sins and rose from the dead. I turn from my sins and invite You to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow You as my Lord and Savior."

Now, go and tell someone and welcome to His Kingdom.

Amen and Hallelujah.

Pastix Rachel
Transgenderchurch.com
Transgender Church

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