Jesus is my Husband
by
Timothy Lee
(formerly Transwoman Rachel of TransgenderChurch.com)
Copyright © 2025 by Timothy Lee
Dedication
This Book is Dedicated to God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost
I asked God for wisdom to help me make money because my job really doesn’t pay my bills in the long-term. I didn’t ask Him for money. I asked him to give me wisdom to make money after I saw a video on Youtube describing this technique. Anyway, God answered. The Holy Ghost has guided every word of this book, which really is incredible. I wrote no outline, no notes, nothing. The Holy Ghost led the way after God suggested I write about Jesus Is My Husband!
Invocation Prayer
Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, I command all demons to be silenced while anyone reads this book in the Mighty Name of Jesus and by the Blood of Jesus Christ. I bind every evil spirit and strongman from exerting any influence over the individual, give them clarity and peace of mind and help them understand and get wisdom from this book. All in the Mighty Name of Jesus! Thank and Praise you O’ Lord, God, YHWH, Jesus, Yeshua and the Holy Ghost! Amen.
Do You Need Deliverance or Healing or Both?
Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, I command all demons to leave the person who asks, I bind all strongmen affecting those who ask, I command all sickness, infirmities, illnesses to leave any person who ask in the Mighty Name of Jesus and by the Blood of Jesus! Thank and Praise You Jesus, YHWH, Jehovah, Yeshua and the Holy Ghost! Amen!
You are free!
You are healed!
Praise the Lord God Almighty!
Amen.
JESUS IS MY HUSBAND
God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost are ALL your Husband!
“For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.” (Isaiah 54:5) (KJV)
The Holy Trinity
It’s very simple.
He is.
Father (Head), Jesus Christ (Body), and Holy Ghost (Spirit). I get the Trinity. One are Three, Three are One. Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.
I once awoke and saw an older Jesus (God the Father). They are all one. But, they are three. The only time they were separate was on the Cross at Calvary when God had to turn His back on Jesus Christ because Jesus became SIN, the Living Sacrifice and God is Holy. Jesus cried, “Why has thou forsaken me?” Then, Jesus gave up the Ghost and died.
Three days later Jesus was Resurrected by the Holy Ghost.
The Shroud of Turin has Jesus’s imaged burned into it, but recently in 2025 scientist who studied it have no idea how the image is there. It truly is supernatural. The went to disprove it, but ended up proving it was read. They also found the Shroud was from Jesus’s time on Earth. NASA discovered the date of Jesus’s death as Friday, April 3, 33 A.D. due to an eclipse that turned the moon red over Jerusalem.
Science is proving everything is true.
Since my re-awakening in 2020, due to Covid and Revelation videos on Youtube, I started TransgenderChurch.com and began my ministry. I asked God, didn’t wait on an answer, bought the domain, and it began with the Holy Ghost leading the way. In fact, He’s directing this book. That began April 24, 2020. Five years later, I’m no longer Transgender, no longer Rachel, and am Tim as God intended. My ministry moved from witnessing to fellow Transgenders to Deliverance and Healing today Thanksgiving 2025.
God only gets sweeter!
God calling me Rachel in a dream after a night of despair changed my life forever. Isaiah 54:5 changed my life forever soon after that AND I FINALLY FOUND WHAT I WAS LOOKING FOR! Five years later, Jesus healed the Transgender in me and now I’m Timothy (my given name) and am a servant in a worldwide ministry tearing up toilet bug, er, idiot, er, moron, er, TOTAL LOSER, er, satan’s kingdom with Deliverance and Healing and Salvation. I call satan “toilet bug” (an insult to toilet bugs) but idiot made it personal. Wanna hate someone? satan is your idiot, or, moron, or, TOTAL LOSER to hate. All this moron does is steal, kill and destroy (John 10:10).
Five years of ministry.
Wow!
It seems like a vapor.
WILL YOU DIE FOR HIM?
I remember that from a movie in the 1980s.
WILL YOU?
Yeah, I believe I would.
I wouldn’t die for anything else.
One day, I might have to.
One day, they will come for me if God taries.
I remember seeing a movie as a kid in the 1970s and it was about a guy who went around riding motorcycles and was a knight and followed it. I remember seeing the movie Excalibur and wanting to be a knight and serve a king. I saw Percival and wanted to be like him. Totally dedicated to a king.
I SERVE KING JESUS TODAY!
I GOT WHAT I DESIRED!
“Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.” (Psalm 37:4) (KJV)
I never understood that Scripture as it applied to me until right now writing this.
I was timid like Gideon and now the Holy Ghost has shaped me into a king and priest unto God (Rev. 1:6).
I know I can’t do anything.
“I can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me.” (Phil 4:13)
I wear that everyday on my wrist. It is the Scripture that if prayer correctly will give you Holy Ghost Juice, as I call it, to conquer anything. Just remember, you are just a willing vessel and Jesus does all the conquering.
That’s why Jesus is Husband!
“Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;” (Ephesians 5:25) (KJV)
Jesus died from me, for us. He allowed them to pluck out His beard, beat Him, flog him, crucify him. Did you know Jesus hung on that tree naked? Jesus was defiled naked on that Cross at Calvary.
If you are married, I’m married to Jesus only, to a woman, you are required to die for her if need be, by that very Scripture.
Seriously!
God showed me how much He loved me by bring that song “Stuck on You” by Lionel Richie to my mind. Now, I sing it back to Him. That’s so God in my Life. “Mighty Glad You Stayed” just broke me up.
That’s SOOOOOO God!
I have a hard time being good to myself because of my abusive childhood. So, God told me “It ain’t a crime to be good to yourself” as Paul Stanley sung in the song “Lick it up” from KISS. Again, that is SOOOOOO God! So, when it gets to good, and I want to shy away, IT AIN’T A CRIME TO BE GOOD TO YOURSELF!
A few years ago, I ask God to do something that showed His love for me. My Mustang was on empty almost but I decided to go onto work and get gas after.
I forgot.
Worked the next day and forgot about getting gas.
Car was empty.
Drove all over town with the air conditioner running and the car ran flawlessly on an empty tank.
I ain’t kidding!
Tuesday morning, I saw the needle was way below empty. Fear gripped me as I sat at the stoplight just away from the gas station. Car was running perfectly. Anyway, I thought the car would stop right there. But, got gas. It took 12.8 gallons. The car had a 12 gallon tank. It was bone dry since Sunday. I drove it to work then everywhere on Monday and it ran perfect.
NO WAY THAT CAR RAN EXCEPT BY SUPERNATURALLY BY THE POWER OF GOD THE HOLY GHOST!
I even joked, “How about I never get gas and you just power it.” It was something along that line. I got gas.
The funny thing.
The gas gauge never worked right after that.
Why?
It was God reminding me of that miracle and He would never let me run dry in any shape, form, or fashion!
Whoa!
Just totally got that!
Jesus is LOVE COMPLETELY!
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no account of wrongs. Love takes no pleasure in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” (1 Cor 13:4-7) (Berean)
No human exists that is like that.
None.
But, that is exactly how Jesus is.
Jesus is Love!
God is Love!
The Holy Ghost is Love!
A human’s love is up and down but God’s love is a straight line. It doesn’t change because God NEVER changes. “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.” (Heb 13:8) (Berean) Jesus can’t change because He’s forever. In fact, the love of Jesus
God also LIKES YOU! Human’s will say, “I love you but don’t like you right now.”
God doesn’t do that.
God LIKES AND LOVES YOU!
We always hear: God loves you, God loves everybody. But, I've known people that say, "I love you but don't like you." Ever hear that? Well, God loves you AND GOD LIKES YOU.
Need Proof?
I did.
You know how a mom will sit and look at her child for hours with loving eyes while she delights in her child? God does the same with you. Even moreso...
In fact, God even counts the hairs on your head.
"But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows." (Luke 12:7) (KJV)
Yes, it may sound like a little too much love, but God loves you so much he counts the hairs on your head.
God feeds the birds, but he values YOU way more than them.
"Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?" (Matt 6:26) (KJV)
He also promises to supply all your needs.
"But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus." (Phillipians 4:19) (KJV)
The BIG, HUGE difference in God and everyone else is:
He likes you even when you fail. To err is human.
Why?
Jesus died and rose from the dead so that we might have communion again with God. But, Jesus knew we would fail because we are human (and He wasn't–He had a human body, but He was still God). Jesus never sinned, but he became all our sin on the Cross at Calvary.
But, why?
Grace.
Grace, which basically is there for us to get saved AND TO FAIL and not suffer the penalties for it. "His grace is sufficient." (2 Corinthians 12:9) If you screw up, and you will make mistakes because you are human, His Grace is Sufficient. God likes you that much he sent Jesus to die in your place so your sins would be forgiven even when you screw up.
Christians aren't perfect, just forgiven.
Jesus was perfect and they beat him senseless then crucified him on the Cross because He was blameless. Even Pontius Pilate knew He was blameless. (John 18:28-38)
When God looks at a Christian, he doesn't see sin or anything bad. When He looks at us, He sees Jesus because we accepted Jesus into our hearts. He also sees the Holy Ghost inside us...and you know who He is? The Holy Spirit really is Jesus's Spirit.
I'm not saying Grace is a license to sin. I'm saying Grace is there because we are human and will make mistakes because we are human. It is impossible for us as humans to live above sin because of our endemic nature. I actually think, but can't prove it, but us just existing day to day is some little sin. Sin is in our nature. It's called the flesh (not your skin or body), but our endemic nature. However, when we get saved, guess what?, we are reborn inside. The flesh is there but subdued. The more we pray, "crucify the flesh" as Paul put it Galatians 5:24, the more subdued it becomes. The flesh is those little thoughts that pop into your head that questions God, exalts above God. The flesh is NOT you but our endemic nature. Prayer is crucifying the flesh and bringing it under submission.
Yeah, God likes you that much. But, His like is both personal and corporate. Jesus is our Husband and we are His Bride. The Church is His Bride. But, Jesus wants to know you intimately as His Bride. God wants to hear about your successes, your failures, your wants, your needs, your prayers for others, what you like, what you dislike, your favorite food, your favorite song, your favorite movie, everything! God's ear never tires of listening to you no matter what you are saying, even when you go on and on and on about nothing. Unlike another human, He's actively listening to you.
God loves listening to you tell Him everything about you. His ear is always open and He's always happy hear what you have to say even if you're mad. His that good a friend. He knows His ways are not our ways. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord." (Isaiah 55:8) (KJV)
God fashioned you in the womb of your mother. Yes, He did. It's why abortion is murder. "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb." (Psalms 139:13) (NIV) The Holy Spirit is the breath of life and one of His jobs is knitting us together in our mother's womb.
WHY WOULD GOD NOT LIKE YOU SINCE HE DOES ALL THAT TO MAKE YOU?!!!
Yes, God Likes You, Jesus Likes You and the Holy Spirit Likes You.
We know God loves us, but we also should know He likes us.
Sometimes, that impresses people, like me, far more than God Loves Us!
Sometimes.
A RELATIONSHIP IS WHAT GOD REALLY WANTS
Why did God create us?
God was lonely.
Why did God send Jesus?
So, we, once again, could have relationship with God.
The Relationship with God is the MOST IMPORTANT thing you do. Everything else is icing on the cake to God. Many will disagree and say, well, ya gotta do this, and ya gotta do that. Let me tell you, if you focus on your relationship with Jesus Christ, the rest comes easy.
Your relationship with Jesus Christ is THE FOUNDATION YOU HAVE TO HAVE!
“Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity.” (Matt 7:21) (KJV)
You can build cathedrals to Jesus, you can stand in the pulpit and be a life coach and preach heresies and doctrines of demons, sorry, that’s what they do, be a missionary, but if you don’t cultivate a personal relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost, you will be damned just like anyone else.
A relationship with Jesus Christ is the most important thing you’ll ever do and have in life.
You know, I love Jesus and God and the Holy Ghost dearly, with all my heart, but feeling worthy of them escapes me. But, Jesus loves me anyway. None of us are worthy. We are saved through Grace by Jesus Christ (Eph 2:8-9). You can’t earn it, you can’t buy it, salvation is the Gift from Jesus Christ. The only way to God is by Jesus Christ (John 14:6), and all religions seem to point to Jesus is some way, great teacher or other, but only Jesus said He’s God.
Jesus is the Rock with which all Christians are required to build their life upon.
“Therefore everyone who hears these words of Mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house upon the rock.” (Matt 7:24) (Berean)
You build your house on Jesus Christ, the Rock of Ages!
You know that Def Leppard song “Rock of Ages”? When I listen to that song, I think about Jesus Christ. Jesus is the Rock of Ages. That’s one of His titles in the Good Book. Honestly, tell Jesus, God, the Holy Ghost everything about yourself. God’s ear never tires of your voice. You can’t bore God to death with it. God LOOOOOVES HEARING FROM YOU! Tell Him about your troubles, tell Him about your dreams, tell Him about your successes, tell Him about your failures, tell Him about everything. He already knows it, but wants to hear it from your lips. I’ve told Jesus everything. I’m probably the girliest dude God’s ever heard from and if He ain’t sick of me, He ain’t sick of hearing from anyone. Trust me, God LOOVES hearing you talk about feelings. Like I said, why more women don’t get into the Jesus as Husband thing fully without wading in the water and just jump in the deep end is BEYOND ME!
And, Guys, it’s totally okay to talk with Jesus about all your feelings. He doesn’t judge you are think of you less of a man if you do. You’ll bawl with the Holy Ghost thickness all over you just like any other. I cry mostly when He’s Anointing me. It feels good and the Holy Ghost does it so it kills my pride.
Did you know the Song of Solomon is how God thinks about you?
Minus the sex parts, of course.
Did you know Jesus will be way more happy to see you when you get to Heaven than you are to see Him?
All that is the truth.
The Song of Solomon is also how a husband is supposed to think of his bride! Besides the sex parts, Song of Solomon is just how in love Jesus is with you. I see why men would have trouble with it and don’t embrace Jesus as Husband fully as it should be, But why more women don’t get into Jesus as Husband is BEYOND ME!
I’ve never been one to be anything but ALL IN! Like I said, I saw that knight in that movie and wanted that and wanted to serve a king completely like Percival did to King Arthur/ I also desired to be a person after the heart of God like David was.
Am I?
One day maybe.
I’ve fallen deep in love with Jesus, God and the Holy Ghost. It’s no different than falling madly in love with someone. Yeah, I had all kinds of romantic desires for God. I know sex can’t happen, but I don’t see why the rest can’t happen. Jesus is the Perfect Husband. God is the Perfect Husband. The Holy Ghost is the Perfect Husband. They are Dad, Husband, Brother, Friend, Comforter, Lover of your soul.
A little secret: If you truly surrender, God will get sweeter every day.
The Holy Ghost, as you surrender more and more to Jesus Christ, slowly changes every part of you until, suddenly, you look back and think, “WOW!” The Holy Ghost changes you geometrically. The further along you grow, the bigger you get. You know how technology doubles every two months? Same with the Holy Ghost. But, it’s really even greater. Little things change in you that you don’t notice until it all fits together.
God LOOOOOVES, absolutely LOOOOVES, to fix people.
That is the Holy Ghost’s main job besides the salvation experience (being born again), to be honest. If you surrender, the Holy Ghost will do all the hard work. All you need to be a willing vessel.
Does it really get better than that?
It does.
God gets sweeter every day.
Jesus gets sweeter every day.
The Holy Ghost gets sweeter every day.
They really do.
Because They are God!Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost is Love Affair That Gets Better and Better!
There are two Scriptures I live by:
“For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.” (Isaiah 54:5) (KJV)
“I can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me.” (Phil 4:13) (KJV)
God’s Agape Love, which all-encompassing, has reflections in humans such as romantic, family, and friendship. But, none are like the love of Jesus Christ. All are poor, very poor, reflections of Agape Love, or God’s Love.
“Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” (John 15:13) (KJV)
Jesus freely died for us because He loved all of humanity that much.
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16) (KJV)
Jesus’s love required Him to allow them to pluck out his beard, beat him mercilessly, and crucify Him. God’s love required Him to give up Jesus to become the spotless lamb that took away the sin of the world (John 1:29). When Jesus said, “Why has thou forsaken me?” that was the only time God the Father and Jesus were separated. God had to turn His back on Jesus because at the moment Jesus became our sin and took our rightful place as the spotless sacrifice, the Lamb of God, without blemish and without ever sinning Himself.
God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost loves us that much!
Even Husbands of human women are commanded to die for their wives if need be according to “Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;” (Ephesians 5:25) (KJV). Yeah, you have to die for your earthly wife if required just as Jesus died for us.
Do you love her that much, or is life too precious?
Really.
I’d say God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost are the Perfect Husbands in that Jesus had to come in human form, be beaten for our peace, murdered for our sins, whipped for our healing, and God had to be separated from one another for the only time in existence. “But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.” (Isaiah 53:5) (KJV)
Would an earthly husband do that for his wife?
It would be a rare thing, indeed.
Jesus as Husband
When I first read Isaiah 54:5 I was struck that it was talking about God as Husband, but, since all three are God, it really is all of them. The Trinity is simple: One are Three, and Three are One, Father, Son and Holy Ghost. Like I said before, they all look like Jesus. God just looks older. Doesn’t the Bible say ubelievers shall be judged by the Word at the Great White Throne Judgement and believers that go in the Rapture shall be judged by the Judgement Seat of Christ? They are all the same, but separate. Our feeble minds just can’t think in such seven dimensional terms.
But, God wants a personal relationship with us.
“The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.” (2 Peter 3:9) (KJV)
God desires a relationship with all of us.
He doesn’t get it, but God desires it.
Hell was always reserved for idiot, er, moron, er, TOTAL LOSER, er, satan and his angels and demons (Matt 25:41). Hell was not made for humans. But, hell will be home for all erternity for kings and queens, princes and princess, celebrities, entertainers, presidents, congressmen, and ordinary people. They will all be wailing, gnashing of teeth and begging God for one more chance. Don’t be one of them.
I’m Married to God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost
I took Isaiah 54:5 to heart and was called to be a Eunuch (single) and dedicated to God. I wearing a wedding ring that symbolizes my marriage to God just like Nuns are. Nuns often wear wedding rings to symbolize the same thing.
I took it way deeper.
Way deeper.
I dove in the deep end.
Just like I said I’m all in when I do something. I’m all in for Jesus Christ. I hope and pray I’m strong enough, if asked, to lay down my life for the faith. Really, that is required of Christians all of the world. The slaughter of Christians going on in the Sudan is horrible and unspeakable.
WILL YOU DIE FOR JESUS CHRIST?
The first death is to self. The second death is hell. You will do one of the other. “For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.” (Matt 16:25) (KJV). To be born again, you have to die: accept you’re a sinner, confess and repent of your sins and accept Jesus as Savior. Salvation is a Gift. It is Grace. It can’t be earned, despite what all other religions basically teach. Salvation is unmerited favor.
Don’t sit on the fence. Idiot, er, moron, er, satan owns the fence.
I also surrendered fully to Jesus.
I told Jesus, “whatever you want me to do, I’ll do it.”
I think few Christians do that. It’s also why few Christians live in victory.
Jesus Offers Unconditional Love
God sees the soul. Beauty is vain and skin deep. Just like animals don’t care what you look like, God doesn’t either. All are beautiful to God. Jesus died for EVERYONE not just the pretty ones. God is no respecter of persons (Romans 2:11)(KJV). God doesn’t care who you are, where you’ve been, what sins you’ve committed. In fact, Paul claimed to be the chief of sinners and if Jesus saved him, Jesus can save anyone, but idiot, moron, TOTAL LOSER satan and his morons, er, minions. I don’t capitalize satan’s name because he’s a LOSER! Had it all and blew it, which makes satan a TOTAL LOSER!
Doesn’t Unconditional Love sound good?
It is good.
Count on God’s love.
Once you realize’s God’s love is endless and bigger than all of space and time, you’ll love Jesus immensely. When you get first saved, the love is crazy good. But, if you surrender and go all in, IT GETS EVEN BETTER!
My love for God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost has been romantic. At first, sexual urges filled me, especially as Transgender Rachel. Many Christian women, I’ve read, would love for Jesus to ravish them. Jesus won’t and we should not think about God sexually. But, honestly, when you realize how much Jesus really loves you, it really is human nature to desire pleasing God anyway possible. But, imagining it is wrong.
I got past that.
And, now, I just want to hug Jesus forever and ever and ever.
Really.
Am I in love with Jesus like a wife would be?
Yep, that never changed for me.
Jesus is my Husband.
When I say that, it literally is electric and the hairs stand on my head and my heart is strong inside and I swoon.
All my life, I wanted a spouse.
What I really needed and wanted was Jesus Christ as Husband.
The Holy Spirit Baptism
“And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever.” (John 14:16) (KJV)
The Holy Ghost, the name I prefer for Him, Baptism is a gift. Jesus said He would send another Comforter and that is the Holy Ghost. All you have to do is Thank Jesus for the Gift of His Spirit and Invite Him to make Himself known to you.
Just pray, "God, I accept the Holy Spirit as a gift and welcome Him into my being. Holly Spirit, make Yourself known to me. Thank and praise you Jesus for the Holy Spirit." In these dark times, you need the Holy Spirit right after getting saved.
He will.
Indeed, He will make Himself known.
The Presence of God is Wonderful
“But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.” (Romans 8:11) (KJV)
The Holy Ghost brings the Presence of God that’ll make your flesh tingle and warmth to radiate your body. The Holy Ghost quickens your mortal body. The Holy Ghost was always there, but now you know He’s there. The Holy Ghost is the breath of life. Jesus said He was closer than a brother (Psalms 18:24).
“And the Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul.” (Gen 2:7) (KJV)
“A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.” (Psalm 18:24) (KJV)
I needed someone inside me.
Being next to me was not, not ever enough.
A human would never scratch the itch.
I had this big hole and nothing filled it.
Then, God did.
We all have that hole.
But, for me, it was even more.
I needed to be filled with the Holy Ghost.
Jesus filled the hole, covered it up and I don’t even know where it is.
That’s what Jesus does than the world never can do for anyone.
Do you realize how empty satan and demons and fallen angels are?
They will never have the presence of God.
Never!
God, Jesus and the Holy Ghost all live inside me, and in you if you are a Holy Ghost Fire Baptized Christian. I feel the presence of God on my skin, making it warm, making it tingle, make my bones vibrate. I’ve felt the Anointing all over my body. As I grow in the Lord, it gets stronger and stronger. It was strongest on my legs. Now, the Holy Ghost moves over my torso and my legs.
The Holy Ghost is Amazing!
“Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.” (Hebrews 13:5) (KJV)
I needed someone inside, AND never to leave me. I think I’ve got abandonment issues in my past so I need to know Jesus will never leave. He doesn’t. We leave Jesus. God is always there. Jesus is always there. The Holy Ghost is always there.
I’ve seen Jesus multiple times.
One of the most beautiful was I was listening to an Enya son where she was playing the piano and suddenly I was a white room, with white carpet. Jesus was playing a white piano and wearing a loin cloth. His back was broad. I didn’t see His head. But, Jesus’s skin had to most perfect tan I’ve ever seen. There was nothing like it. It was flawless.
I’ve heard Jesus’s audible voice once. I basically asked, “Is this Rapture thing ever gonna happen?” I was upset it hadn’t happened in 2024. The next morning, as I awoke, Jesus said, “Two women are grinding at the mill...” It’s a Scripture about the Rapture.
Jesus had the PERFECT VOICE! I want to say it was sexy, but it was just perfect. It made me swoon inside. I think about His voice and it is deliriously beautiful. I’m getting flush right now thinking about it.
Something deeply personal, and happens to Christians, God makes me sexually aroused. The love is soooooo intense it touches every part of me. I don’t act on it. I’m literally drunk right now inside emotionally. My whole body is saturated with the awesome power of God. Oh, my God this feels good.
It’s indescribably beautiful. I feel completely at peace. The Anointing can literally be intoxicating. But, it is also me acting with it. Sometimes, the Anointing feels like electricity on my skin it gets sooo strong.
Another thing God did for me: My penchant for earrings was back but one of ears had closed from non-use over the last few years.
But, God...
I decided to use an earring with a point to just puncture it open. Yeah, stupid, but had done it before. To my amazement, both were fully open. I know right then God had to have anticipated me desiring to wear earrings and it opened. My right ear was closed. I tried it just days before and looked to get my ear pierced. I just didn’t want to drive all the way out to the beach to get it done.
God does the little things that mean soooo much!
I remember I was scared of getting the clot shot and Jesus stood in the Spirit in my bedroom and said, “You don’t think I can’t take care of you?” Oddly enough, it was then I saw exactly how deep Jesus cared for me. I took the clot shot for work and felt it go up my left arm and down into my left leg. The Holy Ghost burned from the drive over to get it and my leg went white hot as the jab went down into my left leg. It stopped. The Holy Ghost burned it out of my body. It didn’t touch me. I had my proof I had it and work had to take it.
That’s my Husband.
I love saying that.
That’s my Husband.
Yeah, I looooooove saying that!God Wants You to Have Peace and Joy Not Be Happy
Happiness is fleeting and is what the world offers you. Joy, on the other hand, and peace amidst the storms and lulls is what Jesus offers you.
The Bible says, “don’t be afraid” or “fear not” 365 times, which means God is telling us, “Fear not, I got this.” God created the universe.
If God can’t take care of me, all the rest is a lie!
Really!
“Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” (John 14:27) (KJV)
Jesus had perfect peace. He was God. “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” (John 1:1) (KJV). Remember when the boat with the Disciples were in the massive storm and they saw Jesus walking on the water? Jesus wasn’t freaking out. The Disciples were but Jesus wasn’t. Peter asked Jesus to command him to come to Jesus.
Jesus did.
Peter walked on water toward Jesus. Suddenly, Peter took his eyes off Jesus and sank into the waves. Jesus pulled him out. NEVER take your eyes off Jesus. Keep your eyes in the Word of God.
“But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.” (Matt 4:4) (KJV)
We live by the Word of God!
Nothing more. Nothing less.
Period!
“But though we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel unto you than that which we have preached unto you, let him be accursed.” (Galatians 1:8) (KJV)
Anything else is heresy and that person is cursed!
Also, Jesus’s peace is active through all things, including rest. I used to love to go to war. I was at peace at war. I wasn’t at peace when nothing was going on. I couldn’t stop and smell the roses. Jesus’s peace slowly taught me to rest and enjoy His peace.
Are you the same way?
Ask Jesus to show you how to be at peace in the storm and out it.
And, He will.
Jesus’s Joy Is Our Joy and Our Strength
“Then he said unto them, Go your way, eat the fat, and drink the sweet, and send portions unto them for whom nothing is prepared: for this day is holy unto our Lord: neither be ye sorry; for the joy of the Lord is your strength.” (Nehemiah 8:10) (KJV)
Happiness is something the world offers.
Joy and Peace is something ONLY JESUS OFFERS!
Remember how I said Jesus only gets sweeter everyday?
Imagine having joy and peace, they go together like eggs and ham, daily that only gets better each and every day. Eventually, you’ll wake up, and depression is something so far in the past, it doesn’t touch you.
Everything is a Spirit.
Jesus is ALWAYS JOYFUL!
God is ALWAYS JOYFUL!
The Holy Ghost is ALWAYS JOYFUL!
God doesn’t have down days.
If you follow Jesus, you won’t either eventually.
In fact, you’ll always be up!
And, if you need the Holy Ghost Juice...
“I can do ALL things through Christ who strengtheneth me.” (Phil 4:13) (KJV)
Amen!
Jesus is About Sacrifice Not Getting
What is the greatest love?
Sacrifice.
“Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” (John 15:13) (KJV)
It is better to give than receive. -Jesus Christ
“I have shewed you all things, how that so labouring ye ought to support the weak, and to remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he said, It is more blessed to give than to receive.” (ACTS 20:35) (KJV)
If you helped the least among you, you helped Jesus.
“And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.” (Matt 25:40) (KJV)
When I was a manager, I had this idea that I was my employees support and it was my job to make them succeed.
That’s how great managers think.
Psst... that’s how Jesus thinks.
Psst... that’s how The Holy Ghost thinks.
Psst... that’s how God thinks.
In the footprints story, Jesus carried you.
That’s love.
Jesus died for you.
That’s ultimate love.
That’s sacrifice.
Just as a man is commanded to die for his wife if need be, that’s because, as we already discussed, that was Jesus command to all husbands because Jesus died for His Bride, the Church, which means YOU!
It’s better to give than receive.
For those that lose their life with gain it.
“For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.” (Matt 16:25) (KJV)
Sacrifice.
Jesus did it.
So shall we.
You Will Be Persecuted
Jesus was murdered and satan would kill you if he could.
“Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.” (Matt 5:10-12) (KJV)
But, the more you are persecuted for Christ’s sake, the greater the rewards. Always keep your eye on Jesus. I rarely think about rewards. My destiny is to be God’s little terrier, a defender of the faith, and even die for the faith if need be. I wanted it. Remember that knight in that movie that took it seriously? That’s me. But, God built me up to this point because I went through the trials, still go through trials, and God trusts me.
You never stop learning. Stay hungry and stay humble. No matter how great God uses you, God is doing ALL THE WORK! You are just a willing vessel. I can’t do anything, but I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENETH ME! (Phil 4:13) When I need the Holy Ghost juice to get through something, I pray that Scripture.
It works.
That’s deep.
Very deep.
If you really want to be a man (or woman) after God’s heart, there will be trials always. Idiot, er, moron, er, TOTAL LOSER, er, satan only goes after those that serve Jesus. But, remember, ALL THINGS WORK OUT FOR THOSE THAT LOVE GOD AND ARE CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE! (Romans 8:28)
The Dream When God Called Me To Ministry
In 2019, I wasn’t a very good Christian. It was half-hearted.
But, God...
I had a dream where I was stationed at this military base and I was walking through a hanger with a special uniform on. The markings were Jewish I realized later. Anyway, my job was to fly this special plane, only one on the base, deep into enemy territory. I was walking a catwalk in the hanger and a guy in uniform was on the ground looking up at me not in awe but rather like I was someone rare to see.
A year later, off from Covid, watching a Revelation series for seven or so hours, I caught fire. TransgenderChurch.com was born. That was me flying a plane deep into enemy territory. I was a Transwoman and could relate to fellow Transgenders. I contacted other ministers and none wanted to help me. God did say I’d do it alone. It was Him and me. I asked God about it, bought the domain before God responded, LOLOLOL, and The Holy Ghost led the way.
I’ve flown deep into enemy territory.
Now, my ministry is Deliverance and Healing.
I was down once and God gave me a dream: God showed me as a dedicated Sergeant in his Army. I stood out among the other troops and was quickly promoted. A few weeks later, I had another dream.
This one was intense.
I was taking fire from the enemy, because I went where few feared to tread, and then got behind a concrete pillar. Later, I was taken to an underground tunnel and was recovering from my wounds as I talked to another soldier.
A full bird colonel walked in. I recognized him. He was the colonel from the movie The Dirty Dozen who had the best troops in WW2. He studied me for a long time, and then said, “Colonel.”
That’s all he said.
Dream ended.
I was floored.
I had had a dream right before that I was a captain. That one was set in the Star Trek universe. God promoted me quickly. I went to Buck Sergeant to Captain and now Colonel.
I remember I prayed for a co-worker that had Covid and she was in the hospital during the plandemic. She got out a day or so later. Praise the Lord. I commented to myself, “That worked?!”
The Holy Ghost immediately said, “The prayers of a righteous man availeth much” (James 5:16).
Wow!
God was calling me a righteous man.
I was humbled.
I wasn’t that righteous and knew it.
Neither was Lot.
But, God called Lot righteous.
Never Glory in God’s doings. It ain’t you doing it, ever. All you can be is a willing vessel. And, even then, I bet God had a hand in you being willing. I didn’t see that movie about the guy (Ed Harris by the way) as a motorcycle knight dedicated to be one by accident.
It’s actually saved me.
One night I wanted to go back to something. That knight thing popped into my head. It made me keep going forward, getting stronger. God builds you slowly. One day, you are slaying a demon. Soon, you are slaying ten. Next, you are slaying hundreds then thousands.
“A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.” (Psalm 91:7) (KJV)
Eventually, you will be so far under the shadow of God as Psalm 91 tells you to be, evil won’t be able to touch you! And, you won’t even get sick.
Jesus does all the work:
“Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.” (John 15:20) (KJV)
Persecution for Christ’s Sake
The closer you get to Jesus Christ, the more persecution you will suffer. I’ve been hated since the cradle literally. Many call it being chosen.
“For many are called, but few are chosen.” (Matt 22:14) (KJV)
If Jesus was persecuted, you will be.
The Holy Ghost changes you into Jesus like.
When Stephen was stoned in the Book of ACTS for Christ’s sake, God strengthened him to withstand it. If you must die for Christ, God will strengthen you to take it.
Like I said, Jesus does all the work.
You just have to be a willing vessel.
The Promise for Walking the Narrow Road
“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.” (Psalm 23:4-6) (KJV)
Jesus will prepare a table for you in the presence of your enemies and they will be forced sit there and watch you eat! Ever heard, I’d rather reign in hell than serve in heaven? No, no, no, you reign in heaven and are tormented in hell. One day, your enemies will watch you eat a glorious meal in front of them as they go without.
The Narrow Road isn’t for the faint at heart. “Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves.” (Matt 10:16) (KJV). We are sheep and Jesus is our Shepherd and Husband and Redeemer. He carries us most of the time through the valley of the shadow of death.
Ask God for wisdom because he gives it generously and finds no fault in those asking for it (James 1:5). Why was Solomon so gifted by God? Instead of asking for things, Solomon asked for wisdom to be king. God rewarded that. It says wise AS serpents. Serpents are wise, but God is far wiser and will endow you with wisdom if you only ask.
Remember: Ye have not because ye ask not! (James 4:2-3) Don’t be jealous of those that have when you didn’t ask for anything. Ask and ye shall receive as James 4:2-3 says.
Jesus still does all the work!
Remember the Footprints story? It showed two sets of footprints through the sand then just one set of footprints. The man said, “hey, you said you’d never leave me. And, you left me.” Jesus replied, “No, when you just saw one set of footprints, I was carrying you!”
Again, Jesus does all the work.
That is why Jesus is the Perfect Husband!
That’s my Husband.
I love saying that.
That’s my Husband.
Yeah, I looooooove saying that!
Do You Need Healing or Deliverance?
Healing the Jesus Way!
Something incredible has happened. First, God showed me how to use the Anointing He has given me to command demons to leave people. Now, God has shown me how to Heal anyone with Deliverance from demons and commanding the illness to go. Months ago, Jesus gave me a much stronger and authoritative Anointing that meant Dominion and was for Deliverance. But, God also has to train us in our gifts. Praise God, for some reason, He gave me the Gift of Faith. Now, as I’ve understood, Deliverance Ministries also brings Healing Ministries, because Jesus made NO distinction between the two during His Ministry, and Jesus was God on Earth so...that’s how we are to do it.
Deliverance is by Authority and Healing is by Power! That is simple, but complex thinking.
A King Conquers with Power, but a King Reigns with Authority!
Jesus did both!
And, Jesus does it through us!
When you pray, ALWAYS ask for Wisdom to understand God’s answer to your prayer. God ALWAYS answers your prayers, even if the answer is no. “Now if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.” (James 1:5) (Berean)
We don’t ask for Healing. No, no, no! You can’t ask for something ALREADY DONE! We command the disease to go in the Mighty Name of Jesus and by the Blood of Jesus!
See: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uFRMsiqIDrw
“What Churches Miss About This Could Heal Everyone”
“And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.” (Matt 17:20) (KJV)
Do we ask God to remove this mountain? No, if you read the Scripture, YOU COMMAND IT TO GO! You don’t ask it to go, YOU COMMAND IT TO GO!
If you are a Christian... you can do the same...!
We ALL have been given THE MEASURE OF FAITH!
“For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith.” (Romans 12:3) (KJV)
“And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.” (Matt 17:20) (KJV)
This Lady on youtube talk about the true intent of the faith the size of a grain of mustard seed. The mustard see grows wildly and as we grow as Christians, our faith grows wildly because the mustard seed builds powerful roots... Get the idea? The more we surrender and let the Holy Ghost change and operate in us, the GREATER THE FAITH INSIDE US!
See: https://www.youtube.com/shorts/KfCWMw_vFXc
No, NEVER think it is us doing anything. The Power and Authority to do ALL things is Christ working THROUGH us!
“I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” (Phil 4:13) (KJV)
If you need Holy Ghost juice as I call it, Just pray “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me!” I believe wholeheartedly that this Scripture is MOST POWERFUL SCRIPTURE in the Bible for Holy Ghost filled Christians!
Why?
Because it says to God, I can’t do anything, BUT JESUS CAN DO ALL THINGS, which Jesus can. And, Jesus does it THROUGH US!
Jesus Gave the Disciples the power to cast out demons and to heal ALL manner of sickness and disease:
“And when he had called unto him his twelve disciples, he gave them power against unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal all manner of sickness and all manner of disease.” (Matt 10:1) (KJV)
The Power to Heal was Won on the Cross at Calvary!
“But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.” (Isaiah 53:5) (NIV)
Jesus and all others were healing by the promise of Jesus on the Cross! Think about that. The people in the Old Testament were healed by the promise of Jesus on the Cross. Now, that Jesus hung on that Cross at Calvary, died and was resurrected from the dead, THE AUTHORITY AND POWER IS FULLY REALIZED!
If you read the sermon of mine on Deliverance or Healing, you know a King reigns with Authority and Conquers with Power. Jesus did both equally. He Jesus, after all. He’s God in the Flesh. (Side Bar: Did you see that? That’s the secret to the Triune Godhead. One is Three, Three are One, Father, Son and the Holy Ghost!)
“Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.” (1 Peter 2:24) (KJV)
Just Like Jesus Gave the Disciples Authority, He Gave ALL Christians Authority!
“Behold, I have given you authority to tread on snakes and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy. Nothing will harm you.” (Luke 10:19) (Berean)
Let that Scripture BURN IN YOUR HEART! It also says NOTHING will harm you!
Jesus Said We’d do Greater Works than He Did
“Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father.” (John 14:12) (KJV)
Let me explain: We do greater works than Jesus, because we are many and Jesus was just one laborer. AND, ALL OF US CAN DO SOMETHING FOR JESUS!
Jesus didn’t die on that Cross for your to sit in Church, consume Youtube videos, to do NOTHING FOR JESUS! No, Jesus died for your sins, and He died so you might have “life and have life more abuntantly.” (John 10:10)
“The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.” (John 10:10) (KJV)
NEVER PRAY THIS WAY:
“God, if you’re not too busy. Hey, I can come back later. I don’t want to be a bother. You know, excuse me for living, I’ll come back later at a better time for you....”
God’s ear NEVER tires of hearing our voice. (Psalm 34:15, Psalm 18:6)
SO, TO BE DRAMATIC, LET THE HEALING AND DELIVERANCE BEGIN!
Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, I command all demons to leave the person who asks, I bind all strongmen affecting those who ask, I command all sickness, infirmities, illnesses to leave any person who ask in the Mighty Name of Jesus and by the Blood of Jesus! Thank and Praise You Jesus, YHWH, Jehovah, Yeshua and the Holy Ghost! Amen!
You are healed and delivered, whatever is needed. Demonic possession, demonic oppression was just broken. You are free!
Do you know Jesus?
Well, it is easy to know him and experience his undying, unfathomable love and affection.
YOU are God’s Prized Possession!
You are God's prized possession and toilet bug, er, satan HATES YOU! Honestly, has satan ever done anything for you? Really? Nope, not one thing! Jesus, on the other hand, has paved the way for us with complete and utter victory over everything, especially satan and his ilk. When Jesus died on the Cross, he took away the sin of the world. We only have to repent and ask Jesus into our heart to be born again.
Jesus came and died for you.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life." (John 3:16) (KJV)
There is no greater love than Jesus.
"Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." (John 15:13) (KJV)
Accept Him today if you don't know him.
Sinner's Prayer
"Dear Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner, and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe You died for my sins and rose from the dead. I turn from my sins and invite You to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow You as my Lord and Savior."
Now, go and tell someone and welcome to His Kingdom.
The Holy Spirit Baptism is a gift. Just pray, "God, I accept the Holy Spirit as a gift and welcome Him into my being. Holy Ghost, make yourself known to me. Thank and praise you Jesus for the Holy Spirit." In these dark times, you need the Holy Spirit right after getting saved.
Amen.
-Timothy (formerly Transwoman Rachel)
