How did you realize you were Transgender?

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In my case, I was molested by a woman when I was 3 ½ years old then emotionally abused most of my childhood by my father. The rape killed the little boy I was and the female took over. I can look back and see her in pictures and in memories just trying to be heard. But, my father was cruel and emotionally abusive so I became more and more female. I remember reading a book by a female, clinical psychologist entitled "How women think" or something close to that. Anyway, she explained women, due to estrogen, look at people and try to anticipate what they need and respond accordingly through their emotions (women are nurturers). I did the same thing, looking at my father and wondering endlessly what he needed so he wouldn't hate and abuse me.

The rape changed me from a boy to a girl inside and the emotional abuse was my estrogen.

Pastrix Rachel
Transgender Church